One of the things I’ve learned this year is that continuously putting myself in situations that are challenging, overwhelming or triggering for me in order to “overcome” said situations and achieve non-reactivity is actually a terrible practice. I realized today that it’s like throwing a child abuse victim in a room with his abuser on a regular basis until he no longer feels the pain and agony. … [Read more...] about Extraction Isn’t Failure
The Anti-Addict: Bringing Commitment Into the Light
All of my life I have confused Commitment with Addiction. And I just now realized this. ALL of my life. Without fail. I have always said (and felt) that I have “commitment issues,” when in fact my heart has been wounded by addiction, not commitment. But likening the two things has prevented me from allowing anything in my life to stick in a wholehearted way. When I think about … [Read more...] about The Anti-Addict: Bringing Commitment Into the Light
Addiction [a prayer]
Clinging onto self control It gloms on tight to become whole Somehow it always finds my soul Because I play a different role Because I’ve danced within its shadows Watching loved ones lose tomorrows Because it’s won so many battles And left me swimming in the shallows Without the love I thought I needed Without protection from the faded Searching for a softer landing Tired of saving and … [Read more...] about Addiction [a prayer]
Black Diamonds
Shedding, molting, unbecoming Layers fly off as I’m dreaming Letting be, I’m just allowing Running with the truth of heart Underneath, a creative shadow Pushed into a dark tomorrow But not so heavy in the shallows of a cellular re-start When darkness now comes quickly calling All I feel is my soul beating Into the body of my being that once was so split apart Time was turning, aching, … [Read more...] about Black Diamonds
The World Doesn’t Always Smile With You
As a highly sensitive and empathic person, I often (and often unknowingly) take on bits and pieces of the people around me. When this happens, the “mirror” approach to the world stops working. What I mean is, what I see around me may not always be a reflection of me after all. I find myself constantly holding up the mirror when I am disturbed by something I encounter, always asking myself, … [Read more...] about The World Doesn’t Always Smile With You